New Year. Who Dis?

It’s 2019! A new year! A new start! A new something right?

Let me tell you something that I find funny and sad all at the same time.

Weight loss resolutioners.

I started hitting the gym 12 weeks ago because I needed a way to relieve some stress from my life and what better way than to hit the gym. I have always been a gym goer. I stopped 2 years ago when I moved to a city where I knew no one and had no family. I had no gym to go to. When I moved back, money was an issue. So, FINALLY I am back in the gym and EVERY SINGLE YEAR January roles around and so do the ” Healthier me” people.

Let me take a step back for one moment. I have no problem with people getting healthy, losing weight, and just overall bettering their health. I mean I’m going to school to be a personal trainer and nutritionist so I can help people do it.

The problem with this New Year’s resolution is once February roles around people start leaving the gym because of a few reasons. One being “I don’t have enough time.” Let me just eye role at you people🙄🙄. 20 minutes. 20 MINUTES IS ALL IT TAKES GUYS. 3-4 days a week. 1 hour to 1.5 hours of your week to exercise. I am a college student with 2 children if I can do it I know you can.

Another so called ” reason” people give is “It’s not working so I am going to stop.” 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

Most people who are new comers don’t really know how to workout, well they just don’t know how to put a efficient workout together and or use the equipment correctly. That is what a personal trainer is for to help you with that. Most personal trainers do free first time sessions. Also, YouTube is a great way to figure out how to use the equipment and to find great workouts.

The last reason I am going to be mentioning is the fact that a lot of people do it alone. You need a support system. Get a workout buddy, find a Facebook group, Instagram group, just have a support system to help you on your way.

I love seeing people get healthy and in shape, but if that is your New Year’s resolution, make sure you aren’t setting yourself up for failure. Make sure you have all the knowledge you need. And get a support system. Friends, spouse, personal trainer someone!

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Breastfeeding Journey so Far.

Charlotte is now 14 weeks old! 3 months of having this precious little girl in our crazy family.

14 weeks of breastfeeding. Let me tell you. It hasn’t been an easy journey. We have had a lot of ups and downs.

Breastfeeding isn’t meant to be easy. It’s a tough job espiceally when you have a toddler There are so many benefits to breastfeeding. My favorite is the bonding.

I was induced with Charlotte at 38 weeks due to high blood pressure and anxiety issues. I was in the hospital for 5 days. Going through 2 different rounds of magnesium, which sucks by the way. Going through depression because hormones and I felt like I was abandoning my 2 year old who wasn’t a loud in the room. I couldn’t hav3 much company so I could keep my blood pressure down. Even though, it didn’t work too well. I hardly breastfed Charlotte those 5 days.

Coming home was a struggle. Trying to get my supply up to breastfeed.

It took me 10 weeks to get her off formula. 10 long weeks of trying every thing from staying hydrated to lactation smoothies and everything in between.

Now she is 3 months old, 10lbs, and 24 inches long is a huge mommies girl and loves her boobie milk. 😍

Breastfeeding in no way is easy but, man, is it sure an amazing experience💜 14 weeks and no end in sight!

The new addition.

Man, having 2 children has been an adjustment. From figuring out how to make time for both to breastfeeding one while the other is hungry at the same time.

Meal prepping has saved me. You guys don’t even know.

Mckinleigh loves her baby sister Charlotte and I couldn’t of asked for a better helper.

I can’t believe she is about to be 2 months old! It doesn’t seem like we have been home with her that long.

I have had some struggles these past 8 weeks with blood pressure, anxiety, and good ole depression.

Eating healthy has been a top priority since I’m breastfeeding and trying to get my blood pressure under control but it’s hard when your on a budget. When we got pregnant I had a job then they shut down. So I lost my job and no one else wanted to hire me. So money has been a struggle.

I gained weight and I am super ashamed of it. I’m uncomfortable in my own skin and knowing my blood pressure is a cause from being overweight makes it worse. My parents have been rubbing in my face that I should lose weight and that doesn’t help considering I’m only 8 weeks postpartum and they have been doing this since that day I had Charlotte. Which is where my depression has been kicking in.

But let me tell you, today is the start of a new me. I’m so tired of feeling tired. And feeling down about my weight, about being afraid I’m failing as a mom, and failing as a wife. I have done good with my diet and now I’m going to push through workouts to get myself healthy for my family. I’m going to prove to my parents that I can lose weight and I’m not going to let this get the best of me.

So if your reading this you pretty much just saw my little rant sorry about that. I feel better when I write, type things. So blogging will probably be my best friend for a while.

Welcome to my world. The struggles of having adorable babies while trying to fix your own self.

Baby Charlotte

So I have been MIA for quit a few months now. Reason being, pregnancy. We had our beautiful daughter Febuary 26th. Let me tell you it has been one crazy ride.

I went to be induced due to having high blood pressure. I was also induced with my oldest, Mckinleigh for the same reason. Anyway, I went in on Sunday at 3pm and they put in a cook catheter at 5pm. For those of you who don’t know what that is, it’s a device that has 2 balloons on, 1 goes in the uterus and 1 goes in the vagina, they put sterile water in the ballons to blow then up and they mechanically dilate your cervix.

I started having contractions 30 minutes later and got an epidural at 11pm that night. As the night went on my contractions got stronger and my blood pressure would spike.

They came in and broke my water at 9am and at 1pm I was ready to push. At 1:11pm little miss Charlotte made her arrival. She gave us a scare because her cord got wrapped around her and it took a few minutes to get her to breathe. Thank God she is fine. She weight 6lbs 3oz and is 18 inches long💕 pure perfection.

After delivery, my blood pressure and anxiety was all over the place. We stayed in the hospital for 5 days trying to get it all down. Finally did and we got to come home. It’s been one heck of a roller coaster though. Trying to cope with the anxiety. I will be posting more now that I’m home and once I can get back into the gym.

The unexpected happens. 

So I thought I would be great about doing these blogs. I thought I would remember to do them especially since I lost my job, but let me tell you I have forgotten more now then before.

So the place I worked for decided to close their doors because the didn’t pay rent for over a year. Yeah, OVER a year. I thought it will be okay I can find another job easy.

That was just a smack in my face. Do you guys know how hard it is to find a job while pregnant? I’m already 6 months pregnant and finding a job is like finding a needle in a hay stack. Sure, it can be done but it sure isn’t easy.

So, I filed for unemployment, and I don’t know if it’s my pride, the fact that I know there is people out there who really need it, or the fact that I just don’t want help, but I filed because every penny counts when you have a family. Not much money about $120 a month but it’s something.

So we had just got back up on our feet and our second little girl is on the way and we are happy everything is going good, then BOMB, I lose my job. Life right?

Well, with my oldest daughter I had energy all pregnancy this one, no I still have no energy and the rare occasions when I do, instead of cleaning or folding laundry, I spend it with my daughter playing. 

Everything seems like we just can’t win for losing ya know?

But the good is our daughter is finally getting use to having a baby sister and not a brother.

She really wanted a baby brother and was kinda disappointed when we found out it was a girl. But, she is coming around to it realizing “oh hey, I can dress her up.” she loves clothes, and shoes, and hair bows. 

So in less than 18 weeks, we will be welcoming baby girl number 2 and this family will be a family of 4 instead of 3. Pretty exciting.

Anyway, just a little ranting and to say sorry guys I’m slacking, and stressed, and I go in and out of being sad. But, everything has a good side and even when things are looking rough, there is always something to make you smile and look forward to 💞

-Tabby🎀

Update

Good afternoon guys.

I decided that I will do workout blogs every few weeks from here on out. But each week I will do a healthy recipe and update on baby. 

I forget to do them then have to find pictures and yeah lol. But it’s hard to try and to starter work out every week without saying the same thing over and over. 

Sorry for the off and on blogging thanks to you guys who are still following me.

Have a wonderful day bbys.

-Tabby🎀